About me

Blogger.Bear Lover.Survivor.

“For as long as I’ve known you, you’ve always been the kindest of people. When I learned of all the things that have gone on in your life I was horrified that these awful things could happen to such a lovely person.

The fact that you’ve not only made it through the hard times, but are also being a shining beacon of hope to others is an inspiration. You’re an incredible person, without a doubt one of the strongest people I know. I’m so proud of the person you’ve become and that you help everyone so selflessly. I have the up most faith that you’ll help people find their voice.”

– Daniel (Darlington,UK)


Hello there poppets!

My name’s Jessica. I am a blogger a bear lover and an all round positivity bug!
I lived most of my younger days with my grandma which meant me growing up loving all things 1950s, vintage and a little bit kitsch.Though i spent most of my younger days dancing round the living room to Bing Crosby and Rosemary Clooney my life had a lot darker side.

This is my story and journal about the journey and survival of child abuse and all those little battles that come with it!

She stood in the storm, and when the wind did not blow her away she adjusted her sails.

During my short years i encountered emotional,physical and sexual abuse and also suffered two assaults.I was left completely crippled with hurt and betrayal and was left to rebuild my little life right from the very start.

After surviving something i never thought i could I decided to delve deep into my life and try to figure it all out. Look at what kept me going, what helped me during my journey and also look at how it all went so wrong for my abusers.I wanted to redefine the stereotype and become something more than an addict,alcoholic or an abuser myself. I wanted to be a good person though the world had tried to teach me to be cold and cruel.

I strongly believe in making our pasts just a story and a guide to help others and that’s what im on a mission to do.
So come on in and follow my journey where i will be showing that there is a life after abuse.

Your words have great power. Use them to support and inspire.

A few pointless facts!

♥ I am completely obsessed with bears. Not in the ‘oh i quite like bears’ way. The screeching and crying way.
♥ I will rename you. By the second time of meeting me you will probably go by something along the lines of sausage,flower or peanut.
♥ I am an avid tea drinker. Only English breakfast mind,lets not get too fancy.
♥ Ive always been one of the boys and not had many close friends that are girls.
♥ I couldn’t find Ian Curtis more beautiful.
♥ I have lived on my own since the age of 14.
♥ Though i may be known as Little Lady now i was first called Little Bird by my grandma from being a tiny tot.
♥ Paddington bear. Come on, I don’t have to say anymore do i?
♥ I have never drank alcohol or done any drugs.
♥ Manners are huge to me.
♥ I love Northern Soul
♥ Bit of a soft spot for Dustin Kensrue.
♥ I have worked as a Tattoo Artist. Didn’t expect that did you?
♥ I am originally from North Yorkshire in England but am currently traveling around New Zealand.
♥ I have a huge amount of love for people.
♥ I cant cope with cute things. I do that squeezy hand thing.
♥ Did i mention im quite fond of bears?

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